Saturday, 14 July 2007

oblivion

Another post inspired by a blog comment elsewhere, this time on Joe.My.God.. The story was about the death of porn star Kent North. As far as I know the circumstances of his death are still unclear. First the story was an apparent drug overdose, then the story turned to suicide. I want to make it clear I am not speculating on his death, but the discussion turned to depression and suicide and I had to say the following:


No matter what brought it on, once you get depressed and you're staring into that abyss, it can be

So.
Fucking.
Tempting.

Maybe this is a bit like substance abuse - although I don't have close-hand experience with recovered addicts - I will do my best never to get that depressed again and I have the system on my side to support me now, but I will always be able to feel that pull.

Sometimes living hurts so much oblivion seems like a nice place to be.

1 comment:

BigAssBelle said...

i know. i have had those feelings too. i feel fortunate that when i sobered up, they went away. i know they don't for a lot of people. i hope you're okay.